The continued existence of this blog is in question.

As I’ve gone through the science coursework, volunteering, MCAT study, and such to apply to medical school, a surprising number of people have commented to me along the lines of “it’s too bad. We need your voice. How much can you write or teach in medical school, or as a doctor?” And the answer is, not much to none at all, at least for the next eight years. I have generally agreed; I want to write, you want to read, right? But, five years in graduate school, even working myself with a working spouse and parental support, have simply not
paid off professional or financially. That time I spent in grad school, the experiences teaching, writing, synthesis, insight, personal study… whether in Gospel Doctrine classes, firesides, Institute classes over 10 years, writing, or blogging, the cost to access my accumulated knowledge has been zero, with rare exceptions.

Generally speaking there’s a cultural expectation that knowledge should be free, and LDS in particular have a long tradition of distrusting people who get paid to teach religion or scripture, especially if they make some claim to specialized knowledge that merits payment. Well, guilty. I would have liked to make a living off all the work I’ve put in acquiring specialized knowledge and disseminating it, but it seems I can’t.

As with teaching and writing, my primary incentive for blogging has always been pastoral, with a concern for the community and a desire to share what meager talent I have. Given the heaviness of the last year, finishing my science coursework and prepping for the MCAT, I wouldn’t have taken this blogging offer at Patheos if not for its financial potential. Perhaps, given another year or two, increasing word of mouth, and good regular content, I might hit the mark where it makes more than pocket money. (FYI, I have about 8000 hits monthly, but need to be in the 50,000-100,000+ range. Still, I’m pretty impressed by that 8000, since only 4-5 posts go up monthly.)

But things change, and not always for the better. I’m a slow writer who revises often, and I care about what I write, which means, I estimate, that my writing here has been worth about 4$/hour and likely to go down. Living in New York and applying to medical school, I can’t justify that.

The bottom line is, I would love to continue sharing what I have to share here, but I can’t afford the time it costs me. (I hear Ira Glass and NPR Drive Week as I write this…) If you’ve been a regular reader of this blog, if you value my voice here, the posts, podcasts, handouts, if you want it to stay “on the air,” please contribute, if you can. I know times are hard all over. Perhaps some of you have tried before; I just noticed that the code in the Paypal button was messed up in WordPress and fixed it. It’s been at the bottom of the About page since I started, but today it’s here too.

I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished so far here, but should I abandon the blog to focus my writing time on the book? Your comments and contributions will largely determine the answer to that question.

I took the MCAT this week, and anticipate having more time to write now. Several notes:

First, it was brought to my attention that while my podcast files and posts are still there, the transcripts are not. This link is a zip file of all the podcast transcripts I’ve been able to locate. (Breanne, I’ve found more than you received previously.)

Second, I’ve added a dedicated page for my Genesis book, with more details, translation samples, and short linked bibliography.  I’ve also started adding links to relevant posts I’ve done for each section. This project is something I’m very excited about, and look forward to finishing in the next year.

Third, I’ll be in Jacksonville, FL for part of July and probably doing a fireside either July 13 or 20 on the world of Isaiah and Jeremiah. Time/date TBA. I’m also tentatively in Boston late July or early August, but no plans to repeat my fireside up there unless someone wants to make that happen.

Fourth, this week’s lesson should be up within a day or two. Check back.

Lastly, since I will be having more time to write, and the response to this post was quite positive, I’ll start adding posts with lots of pictures of relevant sites from a recent multi-week trip there. (Sample below) Thanks for reading.

From S.W. of Jericho, looking westwards up the hills towards Jerusalem and the Mediterranean, some dozens of miles away. Jerusalem is on a hill, but the Dead Sea is the lowest place on earth. The slope between them is steep at times. Mom couldn’t get over just how bleak it was. (Pic is being squeezed oddly. Click for full size)

Psalm 51 gets a special mention with this weeks readings, so I’ve set it off with this post I’ve been holding for this week. Every Sunday when the sacrament comes around, I pull out my scriptures and read Psalm 51. chonneni ‘elohim kechasdeycha, kerov rachemeycha, mechey pesha’ai… Continue reading

Four years ago, when I was running the Mormon Portal, I started doing podcasts on Old Testament Sunday School lessons. They were a bit sporadic, but generally good and improved as time went on. Later podcasts also include a transcript.

I’ll be linking to them as part of the regular weekly post here. Alas, they are no longer available on iTunes and I shan’t be making any new ones. They were time-consuming, and fun as it was, I just don’t have the time.

So before I get lesson 15 up, here is the podcast from Lesson 14 (new page) and Lessons 15 (new page).

Jana Reiss interviewed me about these podcasts, here.

Enjoy.

I’ve posted a Follow-up at Times&Seasons, here. I address the Ensign article on the Flood from 1998, and its problems. Please comment there.

I know some of you want to follow the blog, but life is busy and sometimes we forget things. Continue reading

Since today’s readings are short, I will reproduce them instead of linking.

Abraham 3

11 Thus I, Abraham, talked with the Lord, face to face, as one man talketh with another; and he told me of the works which his hands had made; 12 And he said unto me: My son, my son (and his hand was stretched out), behold I will show you all these. And he put his hand upon mine eyes, and I saw those things which his hands had made, which were many; and they multiplied before mine eyes, and I could not see the end thereof….

22 Now the Lord had shown unto me, Abraham, the intelligences that were organized before the world was; and among all these there were many of the noble and great ones;23 And God saw these souls that they were good, and he stood in the midst of them, and he said: These I will make my rulers; for he stood among those that were spirits, and he saw that they were good; and he said unto me: Abraham, thou art one of them; thou wast chosen before thou wast born.

D&C 138

53 The Prophet Joseph Smith, and my father, Hyrum Smith, Brigham Young, John Taylor, Wilford Woodruff, and other choice spirits who were reserved to come forth in the fulness of times to take part in laying the foundations of the great latter-day work, 54 Including the building of the temples and the performance of ordinances therein for the redemption of the dead, were also in the spirit world.55 I observed that they were also among the noble and great ones who were chosen in the beginning to be rulers in the Church of God. 56 Even before they were born, they, with many others, received their first lessons in the world of spirits and were prepared to come forth in the due time of the Lord to labor in his vineyard for the salvation of the souls of men. 57 I beheld that the faithful elders of this dispensation, when they depart from mortal life, continue their labors in the preaching of the gospel of repentance and redemption, through the sacrifice of the Only Begotten Son of God, among those who are in darkness and under the bondage of sin in the great world of the spirits of the dead.

The Gospel Doctrine manuals tend to drop us into the middle of verses without regard for the context of those passages. Does context matter? (Or, where did we get the Book of Abraham? What kind of text is it? Who is speaking in this passage, and why? What comes before and after?) I think context matters very much. But given limited time, I will set aside the background of the Book of Abraham (see here for a published intro and here for a good lesson), in order to focus on a caution about the uniquely Mormon topic of this lesson, the premortal existence.

The two passages (D&C  138 and Abraham) quoted at the top are really our only among our very few sources of knowledge about the premortal existence. (Sure, other passages may refer to it, and the Book of Revelation in the New Testament mentions a war in heaven, and Jude refers obliquely to a First Estate, but LDS understanding of these is unique and neither text really provides anything other than a phrase. Edit: A family discussion suggested Moses 4:1, and DLewis points out Alma 13 in the comments.) Abraham and the D&C leave many details to the imagination. LDS traditions have filled in the gaps in various ways, not always to our benefit.  Tradition can be dangerous, particularly when we are not aware that our personal viewpoint is based on a tradition instead of on scripture. Often, we read our traditions right into the scriptural text without even being aware that we’re doing so, mistaking tradition for scripture in the process. I’ve written on this elsewhere.

One of the best examples of tradition overwriting the text in our mind is the Christmas story in Luke 2. Many of us read the text on Christmas eve, picturing the 9-months pregnant Mary, Joseph being turned away by the heartless innkeeper, and immediately transitioning to the cave with the animals, due to impending birth. Virtually none of that is accurate or true, but it is the tradition we have received and the one we picture, even while simultaneously reading the words that don’t say what we think they do. This article is oddly argued, but its conclusions are relatively solid. It is one of many such articles that point out how the tradition does not reflect the actual text.

In my first introductory post, I linked the following from BYU’s guidance to religion professors.

Where answers have not been clearly revealed, forthright acknowledgment of that fact should attend, and teachers should not present their own interpretations of such matters as the positions of the Church. Students should see exemplified in their instructors an open, appropriately tentative, tolerant approach to “gray” areas of the gospel. At the same time they should see in their instructors certitude and unwavering commitment to those things that have been clearly revealed and do represent the position of the Church.

As it turns out, these passages on the premortal existence have a lot more “gray” than tradition has led us to believe. For example, the Book of Abraham is our only source of knowledge about “intelligences” and most of us believe we existed at one stage as “intelligences” then became “spirits” and then entered mortality. However, the Book of Abraham equates “spirits” with “intelligences” thus complicating and “graying” that narrative a bit. Note also that in none of these passages (or elsewhere in Abraham) is it indicated how the war in heaven was fought, or that some spirits were “neutral” or “fence-sitters.” That idea came around in the early 1900s to try to explain the priesthood ban, and has thankfully been ended (see the whole article, but esp.  footnote 13 at lds.org)

Among English-speaking Mormons in the west, pop-culture expressions like My Turn On Earth (1977) and Saturday’s Warrior (1973/1989) have influenced common Mormon conceptions about what happened in the premortal life, which seem to have little revelatory justification. These are ideas such as “Two plans were presented. First Satan presented his plan, then Jesus presented his plan” or making agreements with friends/spouses/converts to find each other on earth, or the legendary (I hope no one actually does it) “we were engaged in the pre mortal existence” dating line. The premortal existence has been put to use in other ways, such as assertions that mentally disabled people were too good to require the testing of mortality. While I sympathize deeply with the motive behind that assertion, I think we must also acknowledge that it has little grounding in revelation.

Kevin Barney sums this up perfectly in an old comment–

The Preexistence is a great doctrine, and one of the things I love about Mormon thought. But it is easily subject to abuse. We have a tendency to want to ply it to solve all sorts of problems of seemingly unjust differentiation in this life. Superficially, an appeal to the Pre-existence seems to resolve the difficulty by showing that God wasn’t arbitrary in placing people in different circumstances in this life (whatever those may be and whatever topic we are applying the Pre-existence to). But if we dig just a little deeper, these appeals are almost always problematic. The folklore of blacks not being valiant is just the most well known and egregious example.I think we need to resist the impulse to pull out the Pre-existence as a [thoughtless] theological deus ex machina.

These ideas as well as the more pernicious ones about fence-sitters and such inevitably come up in class comments and sometimes from the teacher. We are deeply blessed to have such knowledge and doctrine, but we need to be very careful about what we actually do and do not know. While appreciating the flood of light and knowledge modern revelation has brought, we must avoid claiming things for it that it does not actually say, and acknowledge those things yet to be revealed.

President Hugh B. Brown expressed it thus to BYU students in May of 1969.

We have been blessed with much knowledge by revelation from God which, in some part, the world lacks. But there is an incomprehensibly greater part of truth which we must yet discover. Our revealed truth should leave us stricken with the knowledge of how little we really know. 

As we study and talk about the premortal existence this week, let it be an exercise in examining our own assumptions, personal beliefs, and  traditions, in sorting tradition from revelation to the extent possible, and especially in responding charitably to those who may have misused or misunderstood this doctrine in the past and present.

Further reading:

• BYU Prof. S. Kent Brown was tapped to write the Anchor Bible Dictionary article on “Soul, preexistence of“.
• Charles Harrel, “The Development of the Doctrine of Preexistence, 1830–1844” BYU Studies 28:2 PDF.
• Teryl and Fiona Givens, The God Who Weeps, chapter 2, is all about the premortal existence. It’s an excellent book. See Rosalynde Welch’s review here, Julie Smith’s review here, and Adam Miller’s semi philosophical discussion of chapter 2 here.